I don’t think people understand how brutally honest I am when I say “I love to dance.” I’ve never been in love before, but I’m positive that the feeling dance gives me is what it feels like. People can say it’s not a sport, but I’m as much as an athlete as any soccer, basketball, baseball or football player. When you’re playing basketball, you don’t have to look good. You could be in absolute pain and show it. You could get someone to come in for you. But when I’m in a show, I have to be smiling even if my toenail is falling off and my ankle is swelling. I have to finish out by myself because there’s no one else who could do the job. I have the upmost respect for them, but I think what I do is harder. Not necessarily physically. But mentally. As a dancer, I have to dig into my feelings and emotions to create the magic people see. I have to fight the voice in my head saying that “I can’t.” When I’ve been at the studio for 5 hours and I’m sore and tired and hungry and all I want to do is cry, there’s five little words I told my parents when I was three that keep me holding on: “I was born to dance.”
I have never read anything more accurate about ballet.
this. I have always felt this way, but I have recently decided to take a break from dancing. I feel like I have given up on myself and I feel like a failure but there its true that there is such an intense focus needed, that if you don’t have the support or motivation, you won’t be able to make it.